Some days our scars seem darker than others...

Failure

Failure of the world today,
Hope you didn't come to stay
I don't think I can help today...
Or any day at all.

I've done this to myself
Most say
The universe is full
You say,
Of people living life today
So I build my hearts wall.

Come on out
And play today
I can't, I'm sick
I have to say,
I feel my soul fall.

You're fine, you are
You've come so far.
You have no scars...
I've covered up them all...

Blood pulse
I must
Refuse to trust
the knife
do thrust
Sometimes
Wish to end it all.

Don't know
My pain.
Please do
refrain,
Making that final call.

RememberHow I tried,

To give
Until I died
Soul shattered
until I cried

Please, help me end it all.

Bag

If I could carry a bag with all the feelings I am feeling now inside. There would be a large amount of sadness, childhood broken dreams, broken hearts galore, false intentions, fluffed with white lies and dark secrets. Childish games played by people too big to be playing those sorts of games, fake smiles and fake hugs, not sure if there was ever love in here....the spot for it seems empty and undisturbed. Hardly ever used. The richest part of this little bag that holds so much is so very empty and broken where it is supposed to hold the most important thing. All there is, is a trail of blood, a deep ache in my chest, and some keys missing.....

Monsters

"I'm not so much afraid of the monsters under the bed, I will quite admit, I'm mostly afraid of the monsters in my head." -JJC 

Loves me when I'm unlovable.
Smiles when I don't want to smile
Laughs when I don't feel like laughing
Stays awake when I feel like sleeping...
Reading when I feel like tv
Play doh when i ts time for dinner.
Bike riding when I want to walk...
Play at the park when I want to go home....
For all the ways you remind me what living really is, thanksyou. :)

Hurricane

30 Seconds to Mars Hurricane (Unedited)

Escape religion, Escape the system, escape brainwashing, Escape what you know, escape imprisonment, escape death, do not be afraid of that which is taboo, do not be afraid of what you don't understand. Kill what you fear, stop running from it now. You can never be yourself until you BE yourself. Do not fear yourself. Give into desires....dreams can be real, real can be dreams.....be in control and let the control take over you.  You just might like it.   The hurricane is in you, the hurricane is in you, the hurricane is in us all. -JJC 4/25/2013

The little girl just could not sleep Because her thoughts were way too deep Her mind had gone out for a stroll And fallen down a rabbit hole

-Unknown